Tuesday, April 26, 2011
6weeks ~ Zuri.loves....
'Jus Chillin'
'In deep thought&meditation'
'napping on a road trip'
So, these past few days have been the most emotional for me!....you are six weeks and mommy has to return to work! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! *holding back tears*
I knew this day was coming, but you can never really prepare for having to leave your child in the arms of someone else for half a day.....
so, I originally planned to write your birth story this week, but I need more time to prepare I suppose...my spirit is just not ready. Instead, I'll just celebrate how you naturally know how to love on mommy...when she needs it most! watching you sleep has been some of the best moments thus far...and I pray that it only gets better from here...
Mommy loves you Zuri.b
'tired after a long day...(of doing nothing)'
Sunday, April 17, 2011
5weeks.....Zuri.Giggles
I keep thinking about how my time is winding down before I have to go back to work...giving up every second of my day that I now spend staring at how beautiful you are!.....*holding back the tears*
Nevertheless, I will cherish these moments left that I have with you....watching you sleep, the adorable, mysterious faces you make when you're napping,your contagious smile....and that lil sneak peek of a dimple hidden in those fat cheeks....Oh! I could go on and on about you for days!...I'm so in love with you!...my Zuri.b
The Best is (not yet to come, but...) here for us now! So, stay tuned my lil Buttafly....
p.s. I'm finally going to write your 'Birth Story'...! coming next week.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
4 weeks....Happy 1 month Zuri.b!!!!
"Pretty Girls Rock!"
"Now I lay me down to sleep...."
"Hello World!"
I looked at you this morning and I said to myself,
"I'm a new mommy to a 1-month-old bundle of baby girl joy."
I said that, smiled and then paused.
My life will be filled with daily blessings of juicy kisses, the smile that melts your heart, the touch of a little hand that lets you know that life is truly a gift from God and the eyes that makes you wanna fall in love over and over again.
Again, I pause.
My life will also be filled with sleepless nights, countless bottles, laundry, little socks (that go missing), cries, poopy diapers and uncertainties about my parenting skills.
Gone are the days when my biggest concern was what I would eat tonight, or what my bestfriend and I were going to be doing for the weekend, or what movie to see--the latest black love story.....etc.
I never would have imagined that my life would be so fixated and consumed with coupons for diapers...or reading the labels on formula cans...reading up on the latest recalled baby items or researching which shots we can do without and worrying about which bottles to buy and if I should put them in the microwave or not.
Let's not even mention that going shopping now means bypassing the cute outfit and matching shoes in the store window. Now, it's a beeline to Carters or Osh Kosh, Old Navy (again not for me), Baby Gap and Target is a marathon adventure spent mostly in the Baby section perusing the baby necessities -- man you are growing so fast.
Again, I pause.....and a smile fills my face.
You know what......I don't mind the change one bit and wouldn't trade it for the world.
These are the feelings and blessings for which you can never be prepared.
Zuri...you are the joy in my heart....the laughter in my soul.....the calm in my storm. When I have bad thoughts or an overly emotional day, you remind me not to sweat the small stuff because there are much bigger things in this world. You are such a ray of sunshine. You bring so much meaning to a world and life that was once so confusing. You have given me purpose--a drive beyond compare.
Even in the midst of all the confusion about being a first time mom, doubting my abilities to care for such a fragile life and hoping and praying to God that I don't screw up your life(lol)......I know that all you want and need from me is to cuddle you when you cry and give you tons of 'mommy-kisses'. You don't ask for much and you don't expect me to be perfect and I can't expect to be perfect either. We're both in this baby training camp together and we'll make it through just fine...
1 month down....and a lifetime to go!....Mommy loves you Zuri.b
Monday, April 4, 2011
Week 3- My SWEET and SOUR Pea...
"Mean-Muggin"
"Adding your two cents..."
"Sing Baby!"
"Speakin ya mind...."
3 weeks you have amazed me everyday, evolving drastically before my eyes...I'm still in awe. Your personality is manifesting beautifully.....oh my, I certainly do have a 'mini me'!...lol attitude and all! My sweet and sour pea....lol You certainky know how to let it be known if you're not happy!
You love to sing along with me, as I sing our song to you...you stare at me for awhile, then you chime right in...mouth wide...with the most adorable sounds coming out! ;-)
I still wonder if you know how tiny you stil are?!....you have the strongest lil legs, climbing my stomach and chest....holding you head up by yourself....you are full of suprises! and mommy is full daily off of watching you!....
21days of pure bliss!....My Zuri.b
Mommy is so in love with you!
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